project: forget mother language

I want to forget Finnish and then I don't. It's full of beautiful words which I love love love - but still it reminds me of so many things I just want to forget. I've losted it's beauty, I don't enjoy it anymore.

kaiku haalea vaalea helinä lipua laineet lennossa taivaalla humisee tuuli huuma jne yms.

I want to forget who I was.